Having a personal goddamn crisis because of some pictures my mother took of me on her phone. I’m just really tired of having my self-consciousness fade and then return with a vengeance after seeing myself in the mirror or, worse, in a picture. I’m not attractive. There’s no doubt in my mind about it. No matter how much makeup I put on or expensive hair I get, I still manage to look repulsive. Luckily I’ve got braces coming up and a nose job next summer, but I don’t think that can even do much for me. I don’t know what to do when every time I look in the mirror I’m on the verge of tears. I’m no exaggeration one of the ugliest girls I have ever seen, and there’s no way to fix it. It makes everything, especially seeing other people, much more unpleasant and embarrassing. I hate going out places because I see girls who are better looking than me (all of them) and it makes me depressed and uncomfortable. I’ll see if I can work out a Botox deal with my mom. But again, that may not do much when I’ve fallen down the ugly tree and hit all the branches on the way down. My nose is ridiculously large and oddly shaped, I’ve got a permanent eyebag under only one eye, drastically uneven eyebrows, frown lines, narrow cheekbones, lips that are always wrinkly and far too big, and a chin that’s way too small. And that’s just to begin with. As far as I can tell there is no hope for improving my appearance whatsoever and I’m depressed as fuck about it.